Hello 2014!!

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope you all had a fantabulous Christmas and New Year! I have to say, I had a very quiet Christmas and New Year, but enjoyed them both very much.

So now, it’s that time of year again where we all make New Year’s resolutions that we will most likely not stick with for the next 364 days of the year! 2013 was not a great year for me. Uni had been very hard, I lost some people who I thought were my friends (not sad to have them out of my life though, I must admit!), my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer (he had an operation though and has now recovered, and it looks like they got rid of all the cancer – yay!), I put on quite a bit of weight, and I ended the year with pretty bad anxiety issues and also retaining my single girl status! I am a firm believer in new year, fresh start however, and have my resolutions ready and raring to go. So here they are:

Stop looking for love! –ย I have been single for almost 9 years now after my ex-fiance broke it off, it was very upsetting and completely out of the blue so I did take it very badly. I am the kind of feel that has felt like I’m not complete without a significant other in my life, and I have been on dating sites/gone on blind dates to try and find Mr Right. Well, after having a couple of “close-calls” last year, where I thought things were going well – then the guys turned round and basically said they couldn’t commit to being more than friends, and me being hurt again, I have decided that I need to take time out from looking! I have deleted my accounts from the dating sites. I want to learn to be happy on my own, and intend to do some soul searching this year instead…see my next resolution.

Year out –ย I have officially told my university that I need to take some time off from my course, due to several reasons! Around the middle of January, I will be moving back home and looking for work. My plans for this year out are to work (obviously, as I just said that!), do some soul searching and “find myself”. I feel like I completely lost myself in 2013 and I don’t really know who I am anymore. I know the kind of person I would like to be, but I need to discover who I am, and experience living like a single girl! Maybe even go off exploring on my own (when I am working!). I don’t have many friends, in fact I don’t have any friends at home who are single, and so I don’t see them often. So, if I want to explore I really should enjoy doing it, whether I have someone to go with or not! I have wanted to visit London for so long, so maybe I can accomplish that this year?

Get fit and healthy –ย Ok, so this is always one of my resolutions, and I have never stuck to it. However, I am now the heaviest I have ever been and if I am completely honest with you, I cannot stand to look at myself anymore. I should not be the size I am, it doesn’t feel right and my health is suffering because of it too. So I need to get serious about this. I plan to start exercising 5-6 days a week, taking it easy to begin with. Maybe just making sure I go out for a walk every day, then build up exercising gradually. I feel far too embarrassed to go to fitness classes just now, but would like to start going when I have lost a bit of weight. I also intend to start cooking regular healthy, homemade meals. I have never been a big cook, and I am a picky eater too, so I would like to discover some tasty yet healthy recipes I can enjoy cooking. I plan not to weigh myself every week, I will maybe try to do this either fortnightly, or once a month, and I will also monitor my body measurements too. This time next year I hope to be a much healthier, lighter woman!!

Fun one ๐Ÿ˜‰ –ย One that I have chosen to do for fun this year, as I am a big photography geek, I am going to be doing a Photo-A-Day challenge, which I will be posting on my Instagram and Tumblr pages. I usually always have a camera on me everyday anyway (you just never know when you’re going to have a great photo opportunity!), so I thought this would be a nice fun challenge for me to start.

So those are my resolutions! I really hope that this time next year I can look back on this and say “yes I accomplished everything (or nearly everything) I wanted to.”

I’m sorry I didn’t do my vlog for Christmas – I would like to attempt vlogging at some point, but maybe now just is not the right time for me.

I hope you all had fantastic Christmasses and New Years, and I would love to hear what you got up to, what you got for Christmas, and what your resolutions are for this year.

For now, take care and I will speak to you all very soon ๐Ÿ™‚ x

Christmas is Coming!!

Hi everyone!

Christmas is a mere 3 sleeps away, and I am feeling very relaxed and festive now!! I am at home with the family which is always fab, have finished all my Christmas shopping and we even had a little snow today – what more could a girl ask for? ๐Ÿ™‚ My mum and I have done a few present drop-offs so far, and only have one more to do, which will be tomorrow, and we are also going to collect our delicious turkey from M&S tomorrow morning – so organised I know!

So to get myself feeling even more festive/excited and hopefully you too, I thought I would give you a little information about what happens on my typical Christmas Day with the family:

I used to always be the first person awake on Christmas morning, and would wake my little brother up before we pounced on my parents! However, we now have a diabetic dog who needs an injection of insulin twice a day, the first being around 7am. On Christmas morning, my mum gets up to do this injection and basically stays awake until we come downstairs. I still have to wake my brother and dad though, and we can spend around 15-20 minutes getting dad to wake up, get dressed and go to the bathroom! My dad is the only person in the family who changes his clothes to come downstairs – we all stay in our pj’s (it’s the best way really??). Anyhoo, once dad is finished, we all head downstairs together and say Merry Christmas to each other, and the first thing I do is get the Christmas tunes on! I am an organiser, and so I begin by handing out the presents that are underneath the tree. These presents are from my brother and I, to mum and dad, and presents to us all from other family members. I start getting my presents into a pile by the radiator (because I’m always really cold!). I like to watch my parents opening their presents before I open any so I can see their reactions. Once all of my presents are in my pile I will then start opening them – I’m usually the last person to start unwrapping! We also get our dogs presents every year which we wrap up, and once we have all finished opening our own presents we will bring them out and the dogs open them themselves which is hilarious to watch!! ๐Ÿ™‚

After the present opening is finished, my dad usually makes us some breakfast and a cup of tea (much needed by this point!). We all then sit and go through what we’ve been given, and if there’s anything we can play with/use/test we will do this now!

My gran and papa (granddad) will pop through shortly after to wish us Merry Christmas. (My grandparents live in a “granny flat” or annex which we had built onto the side of our house).We then start to tidy things away, as we have some of the family round for Christmas dinner. In between the tidying up, we usually have phonecalls from the rest of the family wishing us Merry Christmas, thanking us for their presents and asking what we got. Once all the phonecalls are done we can start getting dressed for the day!

Around about 1-2pm my auntie and uncle will arrive, and we have a second round of present opening with them and my gran and papa – this round of present opening is usually quite chaotic as there are so many people handing out presents! But it makes it so much more fun ๐Ÿ™‚ Another spell of tidying up follows this, before we can finally start making our Christmas dinner. If anyone is interested to know, our Christmas dinner menu for this year is as follows:

Starter: Bruschetta; Garlic Bread; or homemade soup

Main Course: Turkey served with one scoop of haggis (we don’t like stuffing and this is a fantastic, tasty alternative!), roast postatoes, pigs in blankets and vegetables with a turkey gravy.

Dessert: Chocolate yule log served with either ice cream or whipped cream; apple pies with double cream or custard; steamed pudding; or meringue nests

We have bought in some Prosecco to have alongside our dinner too, and I think my mum plans to buy some strawberries to pop in our glasses too, for that little extra something.

The Christmas songs stay on all day long (no one gets to touch the ipod apart from me!). After dinner we usually relax for a little while before the board games or cards are brought out for some after-dinner entertainment! The choice of board game for the past couple of years has been Deal or No Deal – everyone seems to love it. Me on the other hand, I seem to be really really bad, so it’s not my favourite! But it is still a lot of fun to play with the family ๐Ÿ™‚

And that is really about it for our Christmas Day. The family don’t usually stay too late – everyone is pretty tired quite early on, so they head off to relax in their own homes, whilst we tidy up and have another drink or two before we head to bed too.

We tend to have Christmas at our house every year now, as our oldest dog is now blind (it breaks my heart when he walks into things!), and he would get very confused if we took him somewhere else that he wasn’t familiar with. But I actually prefer having it here, as we get to relax a bit more!

I would love to know what everyone is doing for Christmas! Do you have any family traditions that you do each year? What is on your Christmas wish list?

I am also hoping to vlog my Christmas Day!!! This will be my first EVER vlog, so if I think it’s decent enough, I will try and post a link to it on here if you would like to watch it ๐Ÿ™‚ And then I will try to start vlogging on a weekly/fortnightly basis after that.

My next post will now be after Christmas, so I hope you all have a fantastic time with lots of love, laughs and festive cheer!

Thanks for reading guys, look forward to speaking to you all again very soon ๐Ÿ™‚

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! xoxox

Little chat..

Hi everyone,

This blog entry may be a little sad/negative, so I do apologise in advance, but I feel like I have to write this all down.

Today I missed uni…again. I have been suffering with anxiety/depression recently, which is becoming more noticeable now. I am currently at the point where the thought of going into university everyday is, not terrifying, but almost impossible to comprehend. I have spoken to a couple of my friends at uni about how I’ve been feeling, but I’m not very close to them, and feel that they don’t fully understand or comprehend what I am actually going through or feeling. I have tried talking to them about it again today, but I can’t seem to get them to talk to me about it, and am feeling very lonely right now, which only makes my anxiety worse! ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

The thought of going to university tomorrow fills me with dread and I feel like I want to cry. This is also made worse by the fact that uni are piling on more and more work in the coming months, and will have us studying over Christmas which I personally think is pretty unfair – especially since they told us that we would have nothing to worry about until our first exam (which is at the end of January), and that we could have a nice easy Christmas break. Since then, they have given us more and more work to do though, including one presentation before Christmas, a presentation 4 days after we come back after Christmas, and a 5500 word essay! I know I have to try and force myself to go in, but it is extremely difficult.

I try to keep telling myself that I will be driving home for Christmas (“driving home for Christmas, oh I can’t wait to see those faces”) next Thursday (19th). I cannot wait for that day!!ย 

I haven’t been to the doctor yet about my anxiety/depression yet, for fear of being put on medication which I’m keen to avoid, but i do plan to go see them after the Christmas holidays.

Oh, in other news, I sadly did not get the job I was interviewed for ๐Ÿ˜ฆ So the job hunt continues! But I’m also putting that on hold until after the Christmas holidays. I don’t think Christmas is the best time to search for a job.ย 

I am thinking of starting a vlog soon, somewhere else for me to vent and get out my feelings, and hopefully reach out to people going through similar things to myself! So stay posted if you’d like to follow my vlog when I start ๐Ÿ™‚

I think that is all I am going to say for tonight. I’m sorry it wasn’t a very upbeat and exciting post, but I just needed to get this off my chest and at least feel like I was talking to someone! Thanks for reading guys! x

My First Blog!

Hi everyone! Oh, how exciting, my first blog! I am completely new to the world of blogging, but have been inspired to create one all of my own. I don’t know if anyone will find it interesting/helpful at all, but I thought it would be nice to have a place to voice some of my thoughts/feelings etc etc.

So I thought this first entry could just be a little introduction to me and my life. Let me start by telling you a little bit about myself. My name is Stacy (as if you can’t tell from my username), I’m 26 years old and I live in beautiful Scotland. I am currently single, and not looking (more info about that may come in a future entry!). I’m currently a student studying one of the health professions (I won’t say too much about that, due to confidentiality! Sorry, but we do have that drummed into us on an almost daily basis by our lecturers). However due to certain circumstances (which I won’t detail in this first entry), I am possibly going to be taking some time out of uni in the very near future – i.e. I need to secure a job before I can do so. I moved away from home (which is still in Scotland!) last September for uni, and my first year in uni was fantastic! I met some lovely people and had some great experiences which I will never forget.

I love photography, and when I have spare time and the weather is agreeable, I love nothing more than going out for a walk with the camera, or taking a drive to a gorgeous location and getting lost in the moment Recently I haven’t been using the camera as much as I would like to, but I am determined to get back to it soon! I also started cross-stitching a couple of years ago, and I’m currently working on a large piece! It’s Beauty and the Beast: Falling in Love, and is based on the Thomas Kinkade painting. When it’s finished, it should look like this:

This is what the finished piece should look like

This is what the finished piece should look like

And this is my progress so far:

My current progress with the piece!

My current progress with the piece!

So it’s getting there, but is taking a very long time! My plan once it is complete is to get it framed and hang it up somewhere with pride! ๐Ÿ™‚ This is the biggest piece I have done to date, so it will feel great when it’s finished.

Back home my family include my mum, dad and little brother. My gran and papa also live with us, and we have two dogs. Our older dog is called Rocky. He’s a cross-collie/terrier and he’s 13 years old. Poor thing is now blind due to his diabetes, but he seems to be managing well with it. Our youngest dog is Bodie. He just turned 1 year old, and is a Jack Russell. He is the most adorable dog ever, and is extremely mischievous! Here’s one of my favourite photos of the two of them:

My two boys :)

My two boys ๐Ÿ™‚

Ok, so that’s a little bit of information about me! Now for what my blog will contain…well I can honestly say it will be full of random entries, with general musings about my days/week, my feelings, and some rants too! I’ll also highlight any of my favourite products if I feel I have to rave about anything ๐Ÿ™‚ If there is anything in particular you would like to see me write about, or if you want to contact me please feel free to do so either in the comments or you can email me at stacy3887@gmail.com

To end this first entry, I’ll share some of my favourites from today: ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  ย  – Charlee Drew. He was the supporting act when I went to see 5ive at the weekend, and he is fantastic! I met him after the concert and bought his album which he signed for me, and he’s just such a lovely, down to earth guy ๐Ÿ™‚ So if you haven’t heard his music, I definitely recommend having a listen!

– My advent calendar! Of course! I love Christmas, so opening my advent calendar every day is always exciting. It’s a Malteser one, and the chocolates are very yummy – the only thing that would improve it would be if each door contained an actual malteser, with biscuit and everything! But hey, that’s just me.

– Cosy jumpers! My flat can get really cold, so I love nothing more than getting cosy on the sofa with a nice thick, wooly jumper. I bought a few from Primark recently, including a Christmas jumper which is navy and has “I โค Santa” on the front. It’s just so warm, and comfortable ๐Ÿ™‚

– Hot drinks. Again, due to it being winter and so cold, I am loving having more cups of tea, and the occassional hot chocolate from Caffe Nero (which is the best hot chocolate ever!). My choice of teabag is Twining’s English Breakfast Tea, and I like my tea very milky – baby tea as my friends/family call it. Yum yum!

Ok, so that is it, my first blog entry is done! I hope you enjoyed finding out a little bit more about me, and will stay tuned to hear more. As I said above, comments are very much welcome ๐Ÿ™‚

Have a lovely, cosy Wednesday night everyone! Goodnight ๐Ÿ™‚ x