Found my motivation

Hi everyone!

Since making my new year’s resolution to get healthier/fitter and lose weight, I had been struggling. I think with the general lack of motivation and the fact that I was constantly feeling very low didn’t help me one little bit. What I desperately needed was *cough* a kick up the arse! *cough* – or in other words, to find my motivation, get my mind in the right place to stick with my plans.

Well I am glad to say, I seem to have found it! Rejoice!!! I decided to buy an outfit in the size I would ultimately like to get down to and now have this hanging on my wall in my room. I never thought something so simple would work, but it seems to be doing the job of stopping me from bingeing on junk food or having a lazy day. When I look at that outfit now, my mind keeps telling me “you will fit into those!” It’s not even a “special” outfit, we’re talking a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. But just to see the size of my target outfit compared to my current clothes is really spurring me on 🙂

As I am a very organised person, I made a spreadsheet (come on, who doesn’t love a good old spreadsheet??) where I have all my stats listed and I can really keep track of what I’m losing/what I still have to lose. I’ve also planned all of my meals for the week. I was never keen to plan a whole week’s worth of meals before, because I’m the type of person that can change my mind at the last minute of what I actually want for my meals. I will admit I have switched a few meals around, but otherwise I have stuck to the plan perfectly. I’ve also reduced my portion sizes, going to the extreme of marking one of our dinner plates into sections to help me keep my portion sizes right! Also, I live with my parents at the moment, so if I’m lucky enough to have my mum make my dinner, she can use the plate as a guide too 🙂

I’ve also made sure that I have been out walking every day, and have managed at least 45 minute walks, with my mum and our dogs tagging along too. I am starting slowly with the exercise, and hope to build up to using our cross trainer and I’m also going to invest in a kettlebell to use regularly.

I haven’t had any fizzy juice or chocolate for a few days now, and I can’t even say I’m missing them right now. I mainly drink water throughout the day, but usually have a small glass or fresh orange juice with my lunch or dinner. I am a sucker for Bacon Tasty’s from Asda, so I bought some small freezer bags and have managed to get 10 small portions of these set aside as a snack if I am craving something sweet! If I’m honest, I could easily get through 3/4 of a bag of those before, so this is huge progress for me! I am also going to allow myself a day at the weekend where I can be less strict about my food and treat myself, for example if I fancy a takeaway, I will do this then. After all, everyone has to allow themselves a foodie treat every now and again right?

So things are definitely looking up on that front 🙂 I will be weighing myself once a week (each Saturday), and will update this blog every so often with my progress – it’s not going to turn into a weight loss blog though!

I am hoping to blog again next week with an update on the never ending job hunt!! There may be some good news on that front soon, but I don’t want to jinx anything, so I will leave it until I hear news 🙂

For now though, I will say goodnight, enjoy the rest of your weeks, and have a fantastic weekend!!! 🙂 xoxo


Hello 2014!!

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope you all had a fantabulous Christmas and New Year! I have to say, I had a very quiet Christmas and New Year, but enjoyed them both very much.

So now, it’s that time of year again where we all make New Year’s resolutions that we will most likely not stick with for the next 364 days of the year! 2013 was not a great year for me. Uni had been very hard, I lost some people who I thought were my friends (not sad to have them out of my life though, I must admit!), my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer (he had an operation though and has now recovered, and it looks like they got rid of all the cancer – yay!), I put on quite a bit of weight, and I ended the year with pretty bad anxiety issues and also retaining my single girl status! I am a firm believer in new year, fresh start however, and have my resolutions ready and raring to go. So here they are:

Stop looking for love! – I have been single for almost 9 years now after my ex-fiance broke it off, it was very upsetting and completely out of the blue so I did take it very badly. I am the kind of feel that has felt like I’m not complete without a significant other in my life, and I have been on dating sites/gone on blind dates to try and find Mr Right. Well, after having a couple of “close-calls” last year, where I thought things were going well – then the guys turned round and basically said they couldn’t commit to being more than friends, and me being hurt again, I have decided that I need to take time out from looking! I have deleted my accounts from the dating sites. I want to learn to be happy on my own, and intend to do some soul searching this year instead…see my next resolution.

Year out – I have officially told my university that I need to take some time off from my course, due to several reasons! Around the middle of January, I will be moving back home and looking for work. My plans for this year out are to work (obviously, as I just said that!), do some soul searching and “find myself”. I feel like I completely lost myself in 2013 and I don’t really know who I am anymore. I know the kind of person I would like to be, but I need to discover who I am, and experience living like a single girl! Maybe even go off exploring on my own (when I am working!). I don’t have many friends, in fact I don’t have any friends at home who are single, and so I don’t see them often. So, if I want to explore I really should enjoy doing it, whether I have someone to go with or not! I have wanted to visit London for so long, so maybe I can accomplish that this year?

Get fit and healthy – Ok, so this is always one of my resolutions, and I have never stuck to it. However, I am now the heaviest I have ever been and if I am completely honest with you, I cannot stand to look at myself anymore. I should not be the size I am, it doesn’t feel right and my health is suffering because of it too. So I need to get serious about this. I plan to start exercising 5-6 days a week, taking it easy to begin with. Maybe just making sure I go out for a walk every day, then build up exercising gradually. I feel far too embarrassed to go to fitness classes just now, but would like to start going when I have lost a bit of weight. I also intend to start cooking regular healthy, homemade meals. I have never been a big cook, and I am a picky eater too, so I would like to discover some tasty yet healthy recipes I can enjoy cooking. I plan not to weigh myself every week, I will maybe try to do this either fortnightly, or once a month, and I will also monitor my body measurements too. This time next year I hope to be a much healthier, lighter woman!!

Fun one 😉 – One that I have chosen to do for fun this year, as I am a big photography geek, I am going to be doing a Photo-A-Day challenge, which I will be posting on my Instagram and Tumblr pages. I usually always have a camera on me everyday anyway (you just never know when you’re going to have a great photo opportunity!), so I thought this would be a nice fun challenge for me to start.

So those are my resolutions! I really hope that this time next year I can look back on this and say “yes I accomplished everything (or nearly everything) I wanted to.”

I’m sorry I didn’t do my vlog for Christmas – I would like to attempt vlogging at some point, but maybe now just is not the right time for me.

I hope you all had fantastic Christmasses and New Years, and I would love to hear what you got up to, what you got for Christmas, and what your resolutions are for this year.

For now, take care and I will speak to you all very soon 🙂 x